have i told you about the day my mom gave me those 'guide to life' lectures? i usually regard it as her realeasing her paranoids over me. But, there's a thing or two from her lectures that really hitted me. There's a difference between relationship and love between two persons. Their phrase of 'love should be about take and give,' aren't the phrase that my mom gets from love. she believes that love should be unconditional. it's simply giving only. when relationship, forced you to expect yourself to take something in return.

From her words, i am now living my life based on that belief. somehow, i've been living her words before, just as she does with hers. it is painful sometime, but you can't really demand yourself to take too much when you do love that person a lot. it's hypocracy. you'll end up giving anyway, so why waste your energy and time. might as well, enjoy the process of it. pftttt...